Pros and Cons aggrivate me.

Sigh.

I am the type of personality who thinks ahead. I come up with plans, with back up plans and with back up plans for my back up plans. Yeah, I usually go there.

I don't know, the fear of the unknown freaks me out. I don't like entering something unprepared. I don't like guessing and I don't like having little information on my side.

Sometimes I try to be spontaneous, and sometimes I am successful. I guess I can't help who I am. I really need to not let the ideas of pros and cons keep me up at night.
But they're keeping me up at night tonight.

So I'm going to sift through them. Perhaps I can reason with my list in the morning when I have had sleep. You see, I'm terrified of having roommates since my previous ones have hurt me in the past. But there's no way I am able to live on my own comfortably. I'd rather have someone to help me.

Pros
-My future roommate is one of my closest friends.
Con
-I have lost two best friends over the years because of roommate situations.
Pro
We are most compatible as roommates
Con
We have a lot of things to get used to before we live together.
Pro
I'll be getting away from stress that's been holding me down and I am planning to start fresh.
Con
My parents will argue that I am running away from my problems
Pro
I'll be in a place where I'll call my own home. I'll be in control again.
Con
My best friend/future roommate doesn't understand the severity of paying bills on time. Just tonight he was joking to me about how he almost became evictted.
Pro
I will have a fabulous job and a fabulous new life
Con
There will be some money issues and maybe some trust issues. Maybe.

Honestly my list can go on and on. I feel like going to bed right now so I am planning to dish all of this out on someone I'm very close to in the morning. Hopefully they'll be able to put my mind at ease.